Monday, April 20, 2009

Do You Ever Feel Lost?

Do you ever feel that you are just wandering this earth, lost and alone? Do you ever feel that your cries are not heard? Or that your prayers are hitting the ceiling, but going nowhere else? Ever feel that you're suffering in silence, and no one else on earth knows what you're going through?
I feel that way sometimes. Often, actually.
Sometimes I wonder especially if the prayers I've been praying for years on end have gone in one of God's ears and out the other. When I haven't heard a word from Him in a while, I wonder if He has forgotten me. When I feel forgotten by people, I wonder if the Lord of Creation has forgotten me as well. When I can't trust people, when they break their promises, it makes me wonder how trustworthy my Yahweh is.
And then I just feel more lost, and more alone. Here I am on this planet, unseen.

But here is the good news.

1 O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;

you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;

you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue

you know it completely, O LORD.
5 You hem me in—behind and before;

you have laid your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,

too lofty for me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit?

Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;

if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.

God is always watching me. He knows my every move, my every thought. Even when I am in the depths of despair, when I am feeling so bad I feel like crawling under a rock, The Lord knows.

17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!

God is always thinking about me. He thinks about me ALL the time- and even better, He is always thinking GOOD thoughts about me. He's not sitting there thinking, "What's the next rotten thing I can do to screw up her life? How can I give her a hard time?" He's thinking, "How can I help her become more like my Son? How can I bless her?"

No matter how lost and alone I may feel, my Yahweh knows where I am. No matter how forgotten I feel, my Yahweh is always thinking about me.

I am not lost. He knows where I am.

I once was lost, but now am found.


Denise Burden said...

I found your words very uplifting. I, too often feel lost. Thank you for writing such a honest piece.

Michelle's Day said...

GOOD!!! I was just reminded of one of your last statements here in a book I was reading a week or so ago: I might FEEL lost, but Jesus is with me and He knows where we are!