Have you ever moved on from something and worked hard to get past it, or even enjoyed getting over it, but then... come up to something that brings back old, nostalgic memories that make you want it back more than anything? I have been having that experience for a few days. My husband and I just got back from a 5 day trip to Orlando, where we spent several days at all 4 Disney parks. I grew up there. Literally. My 1st visit to Disney World was at age 2 with my parents. Growing up in Florida, I had the advantage of going on class field trips to Epcot and Disney as well. Then we abruptly moved, because we were always moving. The last time I was there was in 1999. Visiting this time as an adult, I could almost see the ghosts of past Me's still running around. Toddler Me. Child Me. Teenage Me running around the park with friends. Young Adult me with my husband when we were 1st married.
It made me want to go back to each of those people I used to be and gather them up and talk to them. Change choices that I made back then that made my life so difficult. I wish I could go back and change so many things and not have to go through so many of the difficult experiences I had as a child, teenager, and young adult. If I could just go to Disney and find all those old me's, gather them up, and fix them.
It also made me lonely for all those old friends I used to run around Disney World with. Right now I am in the v-e-r-y s-l-o-w process of making a few friendships with some good women. But it takes time. For me, a long time. And I miss so much a certain core group of friends I had as a young teenager. There were 4 or 5 of us in our Gifted Class who stuck together for several years: Melody, Kristen, Kari, Audra, Nicola, and myself. I still miss them so much. And there is another group of friends that I had for a very short time who are all gone now too: Wendy, Katie, Cameryn, and Ashley, who were wonderful best friends but came through my life like brilliant shooting stars, amazing but so short-lived that I can barely even remember the things we did together.
I'm so glad that Mickey Mouse is always the same. I love Disney World and Epcot. They do, in fact, get better every trip there.